I don’t like how this feels. I know I can do better. I know I can do better. I want to do so much better. I really really want to. I just need time to prove myself. I want to prove myself to you. I’m having such a hard time typing this post. I don’t even know how to express how I feel. Today just felt so shitty and the things people have been telling me made me feel even shittier. I’m scared… I’m so so scared. Please let me prove it to you that I can be better and that I can change. Please.